Page 34 of Broken Souls

“Should I invite my parents for dinner since I'm back? I haven't seen them yet,” Carson asks as she scoops up the cut-up vegetables and puts them in a dish.

“Umm no,” I mumble.

“You haven't met them, I'm guessing.”

“No, not exactly thrilled at the idea since alpha Manson was such a...” I trail off.

“I get you. Don't worry, I won't invite them. They'll just hound Axel like they usually do about bullshit.”

“He doesn't talk about them.”

“They're relentless. It can be annoying. I'll stop by to see them tomorrow.”

Carson keeps moving around with grace. It's like she's done this so many times, her body just knows how to move across the kitchen. I don't think I could keep a conversation going while I cook. I would constantly be referring to my phone for the recipe's method.

“Can I ask you something private?” I start, finally able to talk about this since I have a she-wolf here.

“Go for it.”

“Did you first have sex with your mate or was it someone else?” I ask.

“It was with my mate. Why do you ask?” She looks up briefly before turning back to the food.

“I guess I'm just nervous about when Axe and I... There seems to be so many things that could go wrong,” I say shyly.

“What are you worried about specifically?” she asks.

“That the last time he had sex was with his mate.”

“Ohh.” Realisation comes on her face. “I don't think he'll be thinking of her. I mean, most people keep sex and feelings separate from each other. I guess it depends. If you're worried about the pain, it will hurt but it doesn't last long. Besides, given it's been years since he's had sex, it'll probably be pretty quick if you know what I mean.”

“There's just something daunting about having sex with an alpha,” I admit.

“You're worried he'll be rough?” she asks.

“I don't know.”

“He won't hurt you, not on purpose. Most male werewolves are rough, though. But think of it like this, Axel has many years of experience so he'll take care of you just fine,” Carson assures me.

“That's good to know. How did you meet your mate since he's in another pack?”

“Well my mate’s alpha was visiting this pack for an alliance. My mate is one of the alpha's top guards so he accompanied him. I walked in on the meeting and met him. Axel was mad that I was going to leave with him. He even suggested my mate join this pack but his mate made him lighten up about it.”

“You knew Axe's mate. What was she like?” I ask curiously.

“She was the rainbow after a storm is the best way to describe her.” Carson smiles sadly.

“That's a lot to live up to,” I mutter.

“Elora.” Carson looks at me intently. “Axel wants you for you. Trust me, you don't need to try and be like his mate. He was a different person with her. You are fitted to how he is now.”

“That's nice to hear.” I smile at her kind words. “What happened with the accident?” I dare to ask but Carson goes quiet.

“It... it was catastrophic. I don't like thinking about it. Once I got word she was in a car accident, I got here immediately. I was there when the doctor told Axel his mate didn't make it and it was... To see such a strong man, an alpha, completely break in front of you, it was heart-wrenching. I stayed for a while here after she passed but I eventually went back to my mate. There was nothing I could do to help him. He was too violent, so I left.”

“Oh,” I murmur.

“It's just hard to believe she died in a car accident. Like shit, whenever a werewolf dies, it's from a fight, a rogue attack, sickness, or old age.”