Page 161 of Make Me Laugh

I’m not on deadline for anything, so I shoot Lilly a text, letting her know I’m taking the rest of the day off.

Lilly

I’m pretty sure that’s what you were supposed to be doing already…

Me

What else am I supposed to do on a snow day?

Lilly

Sleep? Relax? Build a snowman?

Me

Booooringgggg, and I’m all out of carrots for noses.

Lilly is hands down everything I thought she’d be and more. She’s vibrant and kind while still able to run a tight ship. I’ve never felt more welcomed or valued as I have with her and the team at Hell & Hollow.

She’s promised over and over that it will be okay for me to spend time with West on his next tour. As long as the work’s getting done and I can fly home for big meetings, there’s no reason to torture ourselves with a full-time long-distance relationship.

I won’t be able to spend every week with him, but four or five days a couple times a month is better than what it could be with a shitty boss!

Lilly

Enjoy your weekend! Don’t make me lock you out of the system until Monday.

She loves hard workers but hates over workers, always reminding me to take time for myself, especially with the workload we have this quarter.

I’ve been with the company for six weeks, and I wake up every morning excited to go to work. I spend four days in-office, but my future plan is to work remotely three days a week when I get the marketing team to where it can run without needing me there as often.

I’m interviewing a few candidates for my assistant position at the end of the month, finally getting to the point where I feel comfortable enough to train the right person for the job.

I give Lilly’s message a thumbs up and go take a shower. Then I do my hair, makeup, and spend the rest of the afternoon filming some Hex content.

I’m still posting, just not every day like I used to, and haven’t taken on any new brand deals since the end of tour. I’ve really focused on my community and the presence I have in it, forging new friendships with creators I wouldn’t have if I were still keeping my real identity a secret.

Being doxxed on the internet was hard, and so was learning how to navigate a life where the whole world wants to know everything about you, but I’m finding a happy medium and continuing to step out of my comfort zone when I can.

Last week I moderated a signing for one of my favorite fantasy authors. Talia and her friends came after West encouraged me to invite them… I’m not good at making friends, but the few girls I’ve gotten close with since the end of last year seem like people I’d like to keep around.

I took a month break after the article went viral, posting before disappearing this time.

HexedHeroine: Hey my spooky lil babes It’s been a crazy ten weeks, huh? Now that tour’s over, the cat’s out of the bag, and I’m finally home, I’m going to give myself some time away. I can’t begin to thank you all enough for what your support (and hate) has done for me, but there’s a couple things we have to remember:

1. I’m a human with real feelings behind the mask lol I think some of you forget that.

2. I never asked for my REAL life to be plastered on the world wide web, but I did use it to my advantage, and for that I’m sorry.

3. West and I deserve some time to figure out what our relationship looks like without the pressure of making everyone else happy. So, that’s what we’re gonna do.

This isn’t goodbye. I’ll be back.

Long Live Hex

Before I signed off, I went to an account I’d been thinking about a lot and watched the video that started it all. I can’t even fathom the number of views it has now.

When the video’s over, I click the message button and reply to the one Hanah sent me months earlier.