Page 60 of The Intimacy of Finding You

We took deep, satisfied breaths through our noses at the same time, sitting there, savoring the feeling. Our lips were never meant to be on their own or on someone else.

I made my way closer to him, pressing my body against his as it seemed to hit us all at once. What this meant. What this had always meant. I was never going to find a place with anyone else because my place had always been with Callum. He was the one. He was the only one. He was who I was meant to live and die with.

He was the wind, as I was the feather.

He was the star, as I was space.

Callum made the sweetest, most beautiful whimpering noise as I instinctively pushed my hips against his. My hand was no longer on his cheek, and his wasn’t on mine, either. They were everywhere else, feeling skin on skin as we threw ourselves into the warmth of each other.

I panted against his lips, giving in to the way my body craved him. I hadn’t craved anyone like this in so long—I wasn’t sure if I ever had. I’d had moments when we were dating, but it was like my body was too scared. Too uncertain.

Now? God, I needed him.

“Cal, fuck. Is this okay?”

He pressed his forehead against mine, moving his hips in sync. “Yes,” he panted. “Yes, it’s so okay. Christ, baby.”

Hearing him whimper for me…It was a whole new experience. Something I never thought I’d get to feel with him. I thought I was broken. I thought I was tainted. I thought something was wrong with me.

But my entire body was aflame, each and every nerve sparking with each slide of his palms across my arms. Across my chest. Wrapping around my neck and over my shoulders. Every grind of my hard cock beneath my new pajama pants against his.

He took me in another kiss, this time deeper. We panted and groaned through our noses as his tongue met with mine, and each thrust and grind of my hips brought me dangerously close to coming undone. I loved him.

I loved him.

I loved him.

I had loved him from the moment we met. I had loved him on the day I left. I had loved him while I was surfing from house to house, taking hit by hit. I had loved him the day he’d found me in Driftwood. I had loved him when I ran from the hospital.

I loved him now. I loved him then. I loved him, and nothing else mattered. I could feel it so deeply, so clearly, no longer numbed beneath the haze of drunk. I could feel his body rocking against mine and the tightening in my gut, and I could hear his moans so clearly. They weren’t filtered with an echo from a full bottle of vodka.

He tasted like a life I’d been running from. He tasted like forever. He tasted like love.

“I love you.” I panted against his lips. “Shit, I’m gonna come. I’m gonna come.”

Callum tangled his fingers in my hair, keeping me as close as possible. “Come then, baby doll. Come for me. Let go, and I’ll catch you.”

The wind to my feather.

My body curled toward him, my forehead resting against his shoulder as my hips stuttered and my muscles tensed and my breaths hitched until they stopped completely.

All my breath rushed in at once, coming out as a deep moan as I coated the inside of my boxers. My hips twitched forward, riding out the last few spasms. Callum was holding onto me, his fingers gripping tightly into my skin.

“Oh, god. Fuck.” He gasped just before whimpering over and over as he rutted against me.

Feeling and hearing him lose himself like that was all the confirmation I needed to know that it was the right thing to do. It was beautiful. He was beautiful.

After giving him all the ache in my heart, I knew we’d be okay. We weren’t starting over. Starting over had never been a real option for us.

I nuzzled my nose into the side of his neck, pressing a kiss to the salty skin there. “I love you, Callum.”

He was still breathing heavily, his pulse thrumming through the vein beneath my lips. “I love you too, Tobi. So, so much. Thank you for coming back to me.”

“I was always going to come back to you. I ain’t leavin’ again, though. I promise.”

He held me, and I let him. After changing our clothes, he just held me. The entire night. No line between us. No distance. No fear.

And no more cravings.