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See, there was a time when him doing that would’ve made my heart race. I thought being able to be with him would fire up my loins and make everything make sense.

But, it hasn’t.

There was a time where I’d looked at Sebastian and thought-

That’s him.

The mask.

The chase.

The kiss.

The years of waiting.

I’d thought I’d finally gotten it.

So why did I feel like there was something missing?

“I think we need to talk.”

Sebastian nodded his head and came closer.

“Do you love me?”

My chest tightened at the question.

“I care about you.”

We haven’t said those words to each other. At all.

“That’s not what I asked.”

I swallowed.

“I don’t know.”

The silence that followed hurt.

For eleven months, we’ve adjusted.

At first, it was long distance. But then, he decided to move to my state where my mom and brother were.

We’d only just got the apartment six months ago.

And so far, there was nothing.

No sex.

No heated kisses on our island.

Nothing.

Just kissing.

Which, at first I thought was him just being a gentleman. But, we’ve been together for almost a year.

It was just odd.