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BECKA
Ihad awoken alone and chilled. I didn’t remember falling asleep, only that I’d been wrapped in Luca’s warm embrace. When I called for him and he didn’t answer I got worried.
His story had not been resolved. The turmoil he would be facing I knew would be nothing short of all consuming. He had been quick to put aside his pain and be my rock in that moment, but it would be back to gut him. I reopened the cut that he was now dealing with somewhere alone. I would not leave him to that fate.
He would need help. A shoulder to lean on, someone who loved him to share his pain. To be his rock.
Wrapped in a sheet, it was the flames from the fireplace being the only light in the dark house that led me to the study. I stepped into the room without him knowing. Then, when I called his name, he didn’t even look at me. My heart sunk into my stomach.
Settling on the floor at his feet, I took him in. In nothing but a pair of gym shorts, it was hard not to admire the flames licking across his beautiful body. But the sensation of heat only lasted until the full state of him came into perspective.
Hunched over, with his head in his hands, Luca embodied a man defeated. His breathing low and ragged, his body showing none of its strength and confidence.
“Luca.” I spoke his name for a second time, lightly stroking his forearm. He didn’t flinch. Does he even hear me?
He was suffering. Being torn and battered within himself. And it was killing me, but this needed to be resolved. I need to know what his own conclusion amounted to. I snugged up as close as I could, placed a hand on his knee, and waited.
I waited for several long minutes with no results. “Luca. Please look at me?”
He shook his head lightly, a shuttering breath made his body shake.
When I reached for his face he didn’t pull away. I lifted his head but his eyes remained closed. “Please let me in?” I whispered. Luca’s bruised and battered face tempted me to lean in and kiss all his injuries one at a time, but I held firm.
His chest quaked with another deep breath, then he opened his eyes.
It was all there. His pain, his conflict, come full circle to lay him bare and raw. He saw what I saw. That his life had been a pawn on someone else’s game board. That he could have been so much more than who he was. I felt his pain as if it were my own. The man I loved; a man who bled strength, laid so low.
I swallowed hard against my tears, he didn’t need them right now. There was only one question I needed to ask, and no matter what the answer, I would accept it. “Is there a way out?”
His eyes fell shut again, unable to hold my gaze. “No one gets out.” His words were full of pain and regret. “And… I can never abandon Matteo.”
I saw the way his own words gutted him. He hated having to tell me what he was sure would make me curl away from him.
Pushing upwards into his chest I wrapped my arms around his neck, letting the sheet fall to the floor, my naked breasts pressed against his warm skin. Then I gave him what I knew he needed to hear. “Then we will face the future together. You are not alone, Luca.”
The sound of his glass clattering to the floor was followed by strong arms coming around me, pulling me in for a crushing hug. His face burrowed into my neck. “I never thought I needed to hear that, until you said it.”
Tears welled in my eyes. I hugged him tighter, never wanting to let go. His fingers flexed digging deeper into my skin. Then he was pulling away taking my face in his hands and kissing me ravenously. I moaned matching his ferocity.
“I need you,” he said against my lips.
“Yes.”
Before I could take another breath I was on my back in front of the fireplace. The fire crackled and spit next to us, bathing our skin in a dancing orange glow. Luca stripped off his shorts. I spread my legs wide for him and he didn’t hesitate to take me.
The sex was wild and frantic. Luca made love to me like the world was ending. He pounded into me with crushing force and kissed me just as hard. We were both feeling desperate, needing to feel something that wasn’t dark and miserable.
The sound of flesh slapping against flesh filled the room. His hands raked my skin with a need that spoke the words he couldn’t say. This wasn’t just about needing my body. Heneeded me. He gave every ounce of himself to me in that moment. Emotions driving him to fuck me like a caveman claiming his prize. His eyes told me that for the first time he realized just how alone and lost— dead inside— he had been, and now all he wanted to do was feel alive. That I made him feel alive. My heart swelled large in my chest, sure it would burst through my ribs.
My moans grew loud and husky making his thrusts turn erratic. When I climaxed he drove me so high I thought I would fly apart from the inside out. His own groans of pleasure made me want to cry out all the more.
Then he stilled, lodged deep and spilled inside me. Luca laid on top of me panting and shaking. I gently stroked his back while his breath puffed into my ear. “I’m here with you, Luca. Right here with you. I will never abandon you.”
He inhaled deep, squeezing me tight in his arms.
