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Yes, we need to make sure that everything pans out Corbin, I won’t risk anyone’s life.
They all know the risk; they have chosen to follow us, and the others have chosen to follow their alpha. Their choices are not ours to make.
Yeah, you’re right, I just want this to be over.
It will be, then Cairo and Zeke can take the council down, and then we will finally be free.
Hearing that from Corbin filled me with a sense of longing, I never really knew what I wanted out of life or what I wanted to do aside from being alpha. Having Jess and Harlem with me shows me that there is more to life than just ruling a pack. I want my son to grow and be proud of where he comes from, I can’t promise that there won’t be other battles, but I can promise they won’t be as bad as the ones we are facing now.
I quietly pull his door closed behind me and head out the front, I drop into one of the wooden chairs on the porch and look out at the night sky. The stars shine bright, the wildlife make sounds in the woods and the breeze carries the scents of my pack around me. The loss of my dad hit me harder than I thought it would, I was so angry at him for what he did to mom and how he used me, he lied to us our whole lives! No matter how hard I try to latch onto the anger to mask the pain it keeps slipping away from me, I feel a lone stray tear slide down my cheek and quickly swipe it away. I’m shocked that I am actually crying, I don’t cry!
“Why are you out here alone?” I spin toward her voice and glare, what the hell is she doing out here at this time of night?
“Why are you even here?” A sly smirk cuts across her face.
“I asked you first.” I growl, she chuckles and shrugs her shoulders. “I was hunting, believe it or not hunting prey at night is easier than in the day.”
“Wicked.” I deadpan. She sighs and moves toward the porch, I should stop her or tell her to fuck off, but I don’t, not even when she drops into the seat beside me. We both sit here silently, I’m tense wondering what the hell she is up to, but she seems relaxed with not a care in the world. As I stare at her I notice she looks different, her hair isn’t pinned up in its normal style, its flowing around her shoulders, she’s even dressed differently in a plain shirt and dark wash jeans. Davina seems so... at ease here.
“I never thought I would ever be back here, don’t get me wrong I always wished I would be able to come back, thanks to your mate she made my wish come true.” I huff in exasperation.
“What are you getting at Davina? If you’re here to try mend shit then don’t, I don’t have the energy to deal with your drama right now.”
“I don’t want to fight Creed; I know I can’t turn back time and rewrite my wrongs. All I am asking of you and the twins is just give me a chance to try and be your… friend. I would never disrespect Meg in any way, she is a great woman and honestly not a lot of women would have done what she did, she raised the three of you as if you were her own. I fucked up and made horrible choices, but if I didn’t make those mistakes, then you and the twins wouldn’t be who you are today. I just want a chance to get to know you all––.”
“You gave up on us and ran! You didn’t give a shit about us back then so why care now?” Her shoulders slump forward.
“You’re right, I did run, but I never gave up on you three. Your father promised me that when I got the thirst under control that he would bring you three to spend time with me. I found out later on when he cut contact with me that he had told everyone I died, I tried to come back but I was stopped by Alexander’s guards. They told me that if the council caught me, they would torture me for information on the original family, I didn’t care about being hurt, I wanted my children. But Alexander didn’t mean they would torture me, he meant they would hurt you and the twins to get me to talk and I couldn’t take that risk. It is wrong of me to speak ill of the dead but… I hated your father for keeping the three of you from me, he made me a promise to never cut me out and he fucking lied. I didn’t choose to leave you Credence, your father made me leave under the ruse that it would be safer for you kids.” I can’t tear my gaze from her as I slump back in my seat. Her eyes, the same color as my own are filled with unshed tears. I hear the truth and heartbreak in her voice, and I honestly believe every word she just told me. My father kept her from us but… why?
“Why would he do that? What did he have to gain out of keeping you away from us?” Davina shakes her head as she answers me.
“I don’t know. Kane was a great man, but he also had many secrets, he had his fingers in a lot of pies so to speak. I don’t know if it was for fear of the council or the fact, he just wanted to make a family with Meg, why he kept the truth from you all.”
“I guess we will never know his reasons now.” Davina turns to face me and hesitantly reaches over to place her hand on top of mine, I don’t pull away like I should, instead I sit here and stare at her hand.
“Sometimes it’s better to not have all the answers. I know you were angry at him in the end for what he did to your mother, channel that anger and use it.”
“Use it for what?” I’m slightly horrified when she smiles at me, Davina smiling is as rare as a solar eclipse.
“Use your dislike for what he did as fuel to make sure you never become like him. Your father wasn’t a bad man, he just had terrible luck in who he married first.” I can hear the regret in her tone.
“Why did you marry him if you knew he wasn’t your mate?” She removes her hand from mine and stands, she leans over the railing and gazes out at the woodlands.
“Because it’s what my father told me to do. Plus, your father had said and done all the right things to get me to believe him. It’s a long story and one I’m sure you don’t want to hear, so I won’t bore you with the details.”
“Do you regret it?” She turns her head and smiles at me sadly.
“No, if I didn’t marry your father, you and the twins wouldn’t be here. You may think of me as nothing but a bitch, but the truth is you kids are the reason why I rescued so many wolves and gave them a sanctuary on my island. I knew the council was getting worse and every time a new shifter arrived a part of me hoped it might be you three, but then another part was relieved it wasn’t. I’m sorry I was such a fuck up as a mother Credence, I never meant to hurt you three.” Hearing her say that is like getting struck by lightning, it’s everything I ever wanted her to say, but now that she has said it, I wish she hadn’t. I’m so confused and conflicted about the way I feel toward her, I know the twins hate her and haven’t softened a smidge toward Davina.
“Be that as it may, Meg raised us, she is our mother in every sense of the word. I will not push her aside or shit on her because you say you’re sorry. Too much shit has happened for you to get a clean slate––.”
“I’m not asking for one, I know I can’t undo what I have done, all I can do is try to make up for it and show you all that I am sorry. I will never ask you to view or treat Meg differently, she is your mother in every way. I was just the vessel that brought you into the world. Meg has done a fantastic job raising the three of you, I owe her a lot.”
“You owe me nothing.” I jump to my feet and Davina straightens as we both turn toward my mom. I didn’t even hear her approaching; she makes her way toward us, and I gulp. She doesn’t look mad to see Davina and I standing here alone, she smiles at the both of us as she makes her way up the porch and motions for me to sit, she claims the chair Davina vacated. I’m as tense as can be and just watch her as she crosses one leg over the other and smiles kindly at Davina.
“How much of that did you hear?” Mom laughs and waves her hand at Davina.
“Enough to agree with you that I did a great job raising them.” Davina nods her head as I keep darting my gaze between them. “I don’t want any animosity between us, I have spoken to the twins, and they are… hardheaded shall we say. I wanted them to clear the air between you and them before you all go after Jacob, I can’t speak for you Davina, but I knowmychildren, don’t give them any time or space like they ask, break down their walls and barge into their lives and don’t give them a chance to push you away. Also, if anything happens to my twins when you take Jacob down, I will hold you responsible.” I scoff.
