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“What about me?” Mom turns and rolls her eyes as she pats me on the cheek.
“Sweetheart I gave up telling you what to do when you were sixteen, you are a pigheaded alpha who will do whatever he wants. Plus, I know Jess will keep you in line so there is that.” Mom and I chuckle.
“I’ll keep them safe Meg, you have my word.” I hear the truth in each of Davina’s words, it’s good to know I will have someone else watching the twins back.
Chapter Fifty
Jessica
The three days pass by in a blur of chaos, everyone has been on edge, half of the pack has spent more time in their wolf form because of their nerves. The ones that didn’t shift have been helping us move the young pups and the older shifters to safety. Creed told me his grandfather had a cellar built out in the middle of the woods in case they were ever attacked. To be on the safe side we all decided it was best if we hid the pack members that couldn’t fight there. The other alphas have managed to work together, and I think having them here and showing them the respect of us not trying to take over their packs has formed an alliance of sorts. Eric is still quiet and reserved with me and I don’t know why, Creed told me it’s because Sheba is an anomaly, and he doesn’t like not being able to control things. I have kept to shifting in the woods with Creed and the others because when I shifted in front of the other alphas, they went nuts claiming that my wolf was challenging theirs, I wish I could say they were being dramatic but they weren’t. Sheba has been pushing me to challenge them and take their packs. So, I was left with no choice but to shift in the woods or risk blowing our plan out of the water before we could even get a chance to take Jacob down.
“You talking to me yet?” I turn away from the sink in our cabin and face my brother. I haven’t spoken to him or Zeke since they told me about their plan to hunt the council without us, I know my brother, and there is more to this than he is saying. As I’m about to answer him I snap my mouth closed when Davina walks in behind him, I growl at the sight of her. Davina being the asshole that she is, just smirks and moves over to the dining table and pulls out a seat then drops into it. I tear my gaze from her and glower at Cairo.
“If you wanted to suck up to me, bringing her isn’t the way to go about it!” He smiles sheepishly and motions for me to take a seat, I narrow my eyes at him.
“Smalls, I brought her here because come tomorrow we must have everyone onside, and not have to worry about a fight breaking out on our own team. I know you are pissed at me, but we have to table that shit until we finish what we started; can you do that?” I want to tell him to eat a fat eggplant but deep down I know he is right.
“I can tableourproblems.” He opens his mouth, but I raise my hand to stop him. “Now, if you want me to fix shit with her, then you need to leave and take Harlem with you, please.” My brother pales slightly as he looks between Davina and me, I cock a brow at him when he doesn’t move immediately. He sighs and raises from his seat and pats Davina on the shoulder and speaks.
“It was nice knowing you.” I growl and he chuckles, then calls out to Harlem. Once they leave the cabin I move and take the seat opposite Davina, the both of us lock eyes and it becomes a battle of wills, Sheba is bursting to break free and teach her a lesson, but I manage to push her back–––barely.
“Say what it is you have to say, to move on from this, if it is an apology you want, then you won’t get it.” I scoff at the audacity of this woman.
“How dare you––“
“No how dare you, Jessica! You allowed yourself to fall into a dark hole that you couldn’t pull yourself from, Creed tried to reach you, but you pushed him away. He was so desperate to save you that he came to me!” I’m floored at the sheer manner of this woman and how she thinks she is right, her words hit the mark though. I did everything she said and that is what pisses me off more.
“You have no idea what I went through Davina––“
“I know exactly what you went through!” The watery tone of her voice has me slouching back in my seat. “You think I was changed into a vampire and welcomed with open arms?” She doesn’t give me a chance to answer. “You are a fool if that is what you think, I faced horrors that make your worst nightmares seem like a pleasant dream. If there is anyone who understands, it is me!”
I can hear the truth in her words, I can feel her pain as well.I close the link between Sheba and me, I don’t want her to distract me right now.
“You and I may have experienced similar situations but that does not mean you understand what I went through.” She laughs a humorless laugh and I clench my hands into fists.
“You mean how you felt so useless and like you didn’t deserve to live because you were about to give up? Or, do you mean how you felt like if you just lasted one more day someone would come, but no one ever did so you lost all hope? Should I go on?” She takes my silence as her que to continue. “You went through hell Jess, I will not demean that but you made it out, you fought hard and came home to your family.” I feel tears building and try to blink them away, I try to bite my tongue to stop the words from spilling out, but I can’t stop them once they start.
“I just wanted the pain to stop, I thought I could beat him if I showed him, I wasn’t weak and he couldn’t break me but, in the end, I just wanted him to end it. I didn’t care that Harlem wouldn’t have his mother, I knew Creed would raise him.” I begin to sob uncontrollably, Davina doesn’t move to comfort me or say a word, she just lets me cry out my pain and finally let all my anger go. I don’t know how long I sit there with my face buried in my hands and just cry, I only stop when Davina hands me a box of tissues and then reclaims her seat. I wipe away my tears and clear my nose when I face her, the harden look in her eyes is gone and all I see is understanding and respect.
“You are not a victim Jessica; you are a survivor. Do not let the past define who you are, the past is called the past for a reason and the present is called the present because it is agift. Don’t dimmish the gift you are given every day by living in the past. I lived as you are now and it will not do you well to dwell on matters you can’t change, get your vengeance and then let it die with Jacob.”
Davina and I sit here and talk about things in her past and mine, she even gives me tips on how she dealt with her anger and tools she used to cope. When Creed, Harlem, the twins, Sky, Cairo, and Meg enter the house they all freeze when they see Davina and I in the kitchen cooking together and laughing.
“The fuck did I miss?” We turn to face our stunned guests and smile. “Blink twice if your under-duress sweetheart.” I roll my eyes at Cole and tell them all to find a seat because we are ready to serve up. The others move to the living room while Creed makes his way over to me, he places his hands on my hips and plants a kiss on my lips. I blush knowing that Davina is standing right there, but Creed doesn’t seem to care.
“Everything okay?” I smile up at him and nod, spending the day with Davina has been very therapeutic, it was great to talk to someone who actually understood what I went through.
“Perfect, now go sit and D and I will serve you shortly.” Creed reels back and darts his gaze between us.
“D? since when did you two become friends?” Davina saves me from answering.
“That is between your mate and I. I do believe she told you to sit, so I suggest you do as she says, or she may just put something in your food.” D and I both laugh at Creed’s horrified look; I shoo him out of the kitchen after placing a quick kiss to his lips.
Sitting here with our loved ones and sharing stories and laughs is something I thought would never happen. The tension between the twins and Davina has eased enough for it not to be awkward and uncomfortable, I lean back into Creed’s side and rest my head on his chest smiling at my brother as he plays with Harlem. This may not have been what I had planned for my life, but I wouldn’t change it. Laughter and conversations are flowing easily Sky is even laughing at something Cole said, this night couldn’t get any better.
Something’s wrong!I stiffen in Creed’s hold, being the perceptive person that he is he immediately cuts his conversation off with his mother and asks.
“What’s wrong?” I shake my head and focus back on Sheba.
