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“Yes,” she answered as she gave me a nod.
I gave a weak smile; my eyes closed as I gave into the darkness’ numerous attempts.
“I like you Midnight...till next time.”
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~MAKO~
I jolted awake, sitting straight up.
SHIT, SHIT, SHITTY SHIT, SHIT. What just happened...no that was a dream, that couldn’t have just happened.
I was shocked at a number of things as my mind frantically tried to solve all of them at once. I decided to narrow it down to three main concerns: A. I’d fainted even though I promised Marcus and Elias I wouldn’t. B. I’d heard a majority of Midnight’s conversation that occurred, and C. Eli likes Midnight?
Does that mean...
“Makoto? What’s wrong?”
I whipped my head to my left, a pair of emerald eyes locked on to me, worry etched on Elias’ face as he stared at me, frowning at my delirious display.
“What?” I questioned back.
“Why do you look like you just saw a ghost? You woke up and started swearing,” he questioned, raising an eyebrow at me.
I blinked at him; the feeling of guilt returned at full force. It must have shown on my face, because he reached out and grabbed my hand, hindering me from attempting to escape.
“Makoto...stop running away from me,” he cautioned; the seriousness in his words made me freeze.
I opened my mouth, attempting to find the words – anything to express how sorry I was for what had happened during the exams.
I should have known better, knowing the Owner for sixteen cycles; long enough to know his underhanded tactics.
Instead of words, a tear rolled down my cheek, followed by another. Within seconds, the tears flowed uncontrollably as I stared at him, unable to hide my feelings of distress any longer.
“Elias...” I cried, the sobs escaped me as I kneeled there in the cushion like grass, surrounded by the hollow trees.
I could feel the darkness that had claimed me during my weeks of unconsciousness; the tendrils of agonizing cold and loneliness took over.
It was as if it didn’t want to leave my soul, wrapping its icy fingers around me – always reminding me that I am nothing but a tainted rose that would never achieve its once perfect image.
Guilt weighed me – like a heavy burden placed upon my shoulders for me to bear alone.
I still feared the Owner would return once more; unable to anticipate what his next actions were and who’d be his next victim.
I didn’t want to be plagued by such feelings any longer; needing to stand on my own feet instead of being babied. But, I struggled to get past this.
He swore under his breath, crawling toward me and pulling me into his arms.
“Mako babe, stop. It’s okay, I’m fine,” he urged as he cradled me in his arms, rocking back and forth.
“It’s my fault. It’s always my fault. Everyone who comes close to me dies or gets hurt. Why would you want to be around someone like me? Someone as tainted as me? How am I supposed to lead you away from the darkness when it’s within me? I don’t deserve such status. What if you had died Elias? You and Eli and you didn’t even tell me!” I cried through sobs as I pulled away to pound against his chest with my fist.
I’d trusted him with my secret of Midnight, yet he couldn’t even trust me with his?
“Mako it’s not like that! I was going to tell you, but with the exams and you already dealing with so much...I didn’t want to burden you. I wanted you to be focused on the tasks that were already in front of you; you didn’t need another distraction,” he argued.
His hands grasped my wrists, preventing me from continuing my hammering against his broad chest.
