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“How are you feeling, baby?”
God, she wished he’d stop calling her that. It was only going to make it worse when he sent her away. “Okay.”
“Yeah? Do you want to talk about anything?”
“I’m kinda talked out, I think.”
“Makes sense. In that case, why don’t I go whip us up some snacks and you can color? Or we can put a puzzle together. I’ve got plenty and most of them still have all the pieces. I think.”
“I… what?”
“Whatever you want to do, babygirl. Just say the word.”
She’d been so prepared for him to send her away, to never want to see her again, it was almost as if her brain short-circuited trying to process this unexpected turn of events. After several seconds of silence, she simply blurted out the first coherent thought that popped into her head. “I thought you said you would spank me?”
A pained look crossed Dean’s face and he sighed. “I never said that, baby.”
“Yes, you did. You said after I told you about the nightmare that you would…” As she argued, their conversation from that morning played through her head. “Oh.”
“I said we would talk about it. Can you tell me why you’re so determined for me to spank you?”
“Because… didn’t youlisten?”
“I did. I listened to every word you said about your mom and what happened to your brother. What Nate said about you in your dream. And there wasn’t a single thing you said that makes me think you deserve to be punished for any of it.”
“But it was my fault. All of it!” To her dismay, tears once again filled her eyes and she wiped angrily at her eyes. “My brother, what happened to Shannon and Olivia. All of it wasmy faultand I need to be punished for it.”
“Absolutely not, little girl.”
The firmness of his tone snapped her out of the haze of misery that had surrounded her. “What?”
“You were not to blame. Not for any of it. The guilt you’re feeling is completely understandable, but I am absolutely not going to punish you for things you had no control over.”
“Even though I want you to?”
“Yes. Consider this my own personal boundary. I refuse to let you place that blame on yourself, do you understand me?”
Something about the fierce growl of his voice, the fury snapping in his eyes, soothed her. When was the last time someone had been so angryforher instead ofather? “Yes, Sir.”
“Good girl. I do have a compromise, of sorts, if you’re willing to hear it.”
“Umm. Okay?”
“When you’re Little, I can give you plenty of extra rules. And if you’re feeling like you really need or want a spanking, you can break one of those rules and I’ll happily punish you for it. That way, you know you’re not being punished for your past, but it may help get that need out of your system.”
“Do you think that will work?”
“I think it’s worth a shot. Remember when you snuck on the computer to talk to Olivia and she was explaining how some submissives need to feel like they’ve earned a spanking for it to give them the release they need?”
“Yes.”
“I think this arrangement could give you that, if you let it. And I’d like you to spend as much time being Little as you possibly can while you’re here. I want to give you a safe space to be the child you never got to be. Does that make sense?”
“It does.” And god help her, she thought she might be falling a little bit in love with him for it. “But what about you?”
“What about me?”
“I mean, you can’t possibly be getting anything out of letting me color and play all day. What do you get out of this arrangement?”
