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I watched as he leaned down and untied his shoes, kicking them off and then peeling his socks off as well. Then he stood up and unbuttoned his uniform shirt, revealing his bulletproof vest over a plain white shirt. He unstrapped it before taking both it and the white shirt off, revealing a body that he worked hard for his entire life. His pants were the next to go; my breath caught in my throat as he undid them and let them fall down his legs. Kicking them off, he stood in front of me with only a pair of boxers on, and a raging erection showing exactly how he felt about me.
Instead of saying anything, I leaned forward and touched his chest hesitantly. Even though all I wanted for as long as I could remember was to be with him, I was suddenly nervous. It wasn’t the fact that I was a virgin that made me feel that way… It was that I worried he might be disappointed with me. He let me touch him, although his breath grew erratic when I reached the top of his boxers and wiggled my fingers under the elastic strap holding them up.
“Lilly,” he said, warning clear in his voice.
He pulled my body to his and then lifted my shirt off. Reflexively, I moved my hand to cover my stomach, but he swatted my hands away.
“I’m not enough,” I said simply, and felt my body turn crimson under his scrutiny.
“No… You’re beautiful. You’re everything. Don’t you dare think badly about yourself.”
With no room for argument, he leaned down and took one breast in his mouth and the other in his hand. As he teased one nipple with his tongue, his hand pinched and pulled the other nipple until they were both erect. My body responded by pushing itself against him, silently begging for more. When I was sure that I couldn’t take any more, he moved down my body, kissing my stomach and parting my legs.
Settling himself between my legs, I felt self-conscious and completely exposed in front of him. Again, I moved to cover myself up, and he stopped me with a scorching look before he sealed his mouth over my clit. My body jerked as he continued to suck and bite me gently. When he pushed one of his fingers into my core, I felt myself tighten around him and I couldn’t stop the moan of pleasure that escaped my throat.
“Please,” my voice barely a whisper. “I need you inside me,” I begged him, my hands finding their way into his hair. I yanked as hard as I could to get him to stop his assault on my body.
Instead of letting go of me, he growled at me and went back to what he was doing. He added another finger to the first and pushed them in and out of me and bit my clit hard enough to make me scream with pleasure. I felt a pressure building in my body as he continued to use his mouth and fingers on me. An uncontrollable tightening was continually building in my core before everything exploded. Waves coursed through my body, ebbing and flowing until I returned to myself.
I wanted to ask him what was happening, but I knew that if I did that, he would stop what he was doing to drive me crazy in the best way. Instead, I knew I had a ridiculous smile on my face as he finally removed his hands from my center. He grinned and kissed the inside of my thigh. Positioning himself so that he was pressed right against me, he pushed himself into me completely.
Instead of the pleasure I was expecting, I felt pain—unimaginable pain. My eyes closed, and tears pooled in the corners. I yelped and tried to push away from him on reflex, but immediately regretted it. He was too large for me, and where I was stretching to fit him burned. Opening my eyes, I was met with pure terror reflected back at me.
“Are-are you okay?” he asked, his voice strangled. Jake moved to pull himself out of my body, and then his eyes turned hard. I looked down and could see my blood on his cock. “Is this… Is this your first time?” he asked, heat in his eyes.
“Um—” I looked away, unable to answer him directly. Instead of reaching out for him like I wanted to do, I grasped the comforter in both hands and pulled it to my chin.
“Lilly, you have to tell me. Are you?” Suddenly, the fact that he was questioning me when I had given a part of myself to him made me angry.
As a haze of red descended over my vision, I couldn’t help the vitriol that filled my words. “Well, of course I was. Who the hell was I supposed to sleep with? Any boyfriend or date that I’ve ever had has been scared off by you. Did you think it would change once I wasn’t in school anymore? There’s only ever been you.” I turned away from Jake before I started crying. Thinking that I was a fool to think that there could be anything between the two of us, I curled into my blanket and prayed that the night would just end already.
When he didn’t say anything else, I assumed that he left me alone. The sobs that I’d been holding back burst forth and instead of trying to stop them, I let the tears flow. Under normal circumstances I wasn’t a quiet crier, and this was far from normal. It wasn’t until I felt movement on my bed that I realized Jake hadn’t left. He pulled me into his arms, my back to his front.
“Hush, Lilly-girl. I’m here. I’ll always be here.” He stroked my hair and pressed his lips to my neck. “I’m not mad that you were a virgin, love. You have to know that. I just wish I knew. I’d have taken it slower, made sure that you were ready.” He kept talking even though I didn’t say anything. “I still want you. I thought I hurt you, that I was too rough. It horrified me to think that you wouldn’t want to be with me if I hurt you the first time we’re together.”
I hiccupped as the tears came to a stop. “I’m sorry, Jake.”
“No, Lilly-girl. You have nothing to be sorry for. I just wanted to be with you tonight. Something terrible happened and I couldn’t stay away anymore.” He kissed me again, and the pain I felt before disappeared.
“What happened?” I asked, belatedly curious as to why he showed up before dawn.
“Just evil things. I don’t want to think about it. I want to kiss you again, Lilly.”
“Margot. My name is Margot.”
“Never.” And he tilted my head back so that he could kiss me, moving his body as he deepened it. As I opened my mouth and met every thrust of his tongue with my own, I felt heat gathering in my core again. “You can be Margot to everyone else. But to me, you’ll always be my Lilly-girl.”
I turned myself around so that our bodies were flush against each other, and as I did, the blanket fell away from me. He was still naked, and I could feel his growing erection pressing against me.
“I want you,” I said. “I don’t want to stop this time.”
“Oh, Lilly-girl. You’re killing me.” Gently, he pressed his hand between our bodies and found my clit with his thumb. He applied pressure and moved his thumb in circles, silently willing my body to orgasm. It didn’t take long.
I came moaning his name, and then I felt the head of his cock pressing against my slick entrance. My body tensed uncontrollably, a muscle memory of the pain from our first attempt. Only this time Jake was prepared for it. He bit my neck lightly, sucking the tender flesh into his mouth and causing me to arch my body into his. Ever so slowly, he slid into my tight sheath until his balls were touching my ass.
We were both still, and I found herself waiting for a pain that didn’t come. It was slightly uncomfortable, but I felt the urge to move beneath Jake’s body. So I did, wrapping my legs around his waist, and he slid further into me. Opening my eyes, which I hadn’t realized were closed, I saw that he was clenching his jaw and looking up to the ceiling.
“Jake?” I asked him, “Could you maybe move now?”
