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“I’m sorry,” I say quickly, desperate to alleviate the awkward tension between us. He’s just staring at me, waiting for an explanation, and I’m stumbling over my words, unsure of what to say. I have to say something. “I had a great time with you, I did. I just… I think I need some space…”
He holds a hand up to silence me, and even though it isn’t an alpha command, my lips snap together quickly.
“You don't have to apologize,” he says, his voice deep and smooth as velvet. Dropping his hand, he tucks it into his pocket. “You don’t owe me an explanation. I’m glad you had a good time.”
My heart lurches. He’s letting me off so easily. He isn’t begging me to stay or demanding an explanation. He seems content, which is both comforting and unsettling at the same time.
Why isn’t he putting up more of a fight?
Does he not want me at all?
“Okay.” I’m not sure what else to say.
Should I thank him for understanding? Thank him for something? It’s the least I can do after everything he’s done for me.
Damn it, Jessa, get your shit together.
“Thank you for taking me with you,” I say, hoping it doesn’t sound forced. I’m grateful he took me out and helped alleviate some of the stress I’ve been bottling up for a while, but as a result, I’m probably more stressed than ever.
“Do you want to come in and change before you go?” he asks, his eyes falling down my form and slowly climbing back up as he gestures toward the front door.
It could be a cheap ploy to get me inside so he can convince me to stay, but, coming from Alessandro, I know it’s not. He’s just being caring and thoughtful like always.
How is he always so fucking selfless?
“No, thank you,” I say, shifting awkwardly on my wedges. “I’ll change when I…”
My voice trails off again.
I’d been about to saywhen I get to the truck stop, because that’s where I’m heading when I leave here, but I can’t tell him that. He might change his tune knowing I’m going there to shower and change when he has a perfectly usable bathroom inside.
“I’ll change later,” I correct.
“Alright then,” he says. “If you need anything, you know where to find me. Anything at all, okay?”
I nod, my chest tightening. “Of course. Thank you.”
Before he can say anything else that makes be second guess my decision, I turn and head to my car, sliding into the driver’s seat as quickly and gracefully as possible before starting the engine.
Alessandro stands in the driveway, watching as I adjust myself in the seat, and I offer him a timid wave. I immediately regret it, knowing I’m making this whole situation much more awkward than it needs to be, and my stomach turns.
I need to get the fuck out of here.
Before this horrifically awkward, nervous tension rips me apart and leaves me in shreds. I need to go.
I back out of the driveway, glancing at Alessandro a final time before turning to hurry out of the neighborhood.
If I expected relief when I hit the main road, leaving his house far behind, I’m disappointed. I don’t feel better at all. If anything, I feel a little bit worse. A sinking feeling forms in my stomach, but I press harder on the accelerator as a distraction.
I probably should have stayed.
Any sensible omega would have.
They would be soaking up every second of Alessandro’s attention, eating out of his hand. They would be going to any length to convince this sexy, older alpha why he should claim them.
IwishI could be that way. I wish I could be the omega he deserves, or even a half-decent beta.
But here I am, running scared.
