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“She trusts me. She trusts you. We’re good. Elizabeth says what she means, and means what she says. If she gave you a job, she is fine with you coming home with us. Go with that.”
Gene hoped so.
Ethan and his family were all he really had left. He couldn’t stay here and watch Tommy die. Unless he was planning on running with him…
Opening the note, he read it, and in that moment, his stomach hurt.
It ached.
This wasn’t a ‘let’s run away together’ note. It was a goodbye.
‘Dearest Gene,
I hope you get this letter. I’m trusting it to Elizabeth knowing that wherever you are, you’re likely with Ethan. I hate to believe that my gut was right, but it was. I always feared this. I know you love him, and are likely still in love with him. I saw you both on that street corner.
I saw you kissing.
There was nothing more damaging for me than that moment. I hate that I was right, but you are still in love with him, and he’s a married man.
That really devastates me. In my heart, I know I’ll never be loved like you love him.
I didn’t think I could ever hurt more in my life, but I found out that I could. I also realized that you both have matching tattoos. You both share so many secrets in your past that I’ll never be privy too.
It’s like being in a club. I’ll never gain entrance, and now, I see that it was intentional. You didn’t want me to see behind that curtain. This is why. You never stopped loving him. Preston was a bandage over that wound, and it kept the infection out. Losing Preston brought back the wound, and the only way for you to be happy and heal is through him.
Not me.
I’ll never be enough.
If that wasn’t bad enough, our sex life was a lie too. I’m curious why you didn’t tell me that you were a bottom. Was it because you didn’t think I could handle it? Was it because you didn’t want to share that with me?
How is it that Elizabeth knew that my fiancé needs to be topped, but I didn’t? How is it that I am now forced to know that Ethan Fucking Blackhawk dominated you in bed, and you’ve never forgotten it? That what we shared was likely the same thing he did to you.
It was more lies.
Our sex life wasn’t everything for you, and you should have told me the truth. You should have been honest. No wonder you were so good at being a top. You learned from the master of it all.
HIM.
You can say it’s not true, but I know how you feel about him. So, I’ve made a decision. I’ll still marry you, but it’s all or nothing. You have to say goodbye to Ethan forever. He can’t be in your life. You have to stop calling him, you have to stop that attachment, and you have to stop pretending you aren’t in love with him.
You are.
I’ll even leave NOLA, and forgo going back to work here, but you have to sever that bond to him. Say goodbye, cut him from our lives, and we’ll work through it.
That’s the only way.
He’s a cancer, and he’s going to cost you everything. How do you not see that?
For the last year, I knew you wanted him back, and I know there will come a time when you’ll make that move. There’s no doubt in my mind.
You’ll be in bed with him.
Then, he’ll reciprocate, and I will be right. I’m not comfortable with how you kiss him, touch him, or sit beside him. I’m not comfortable with anything when it comes to him because I see how he still looks at you.
You’re both in love.
We all have a gut instinct, and mine has screamed since I saw you two together. Sadly, I’ll never have that with you, and I know it, but if you want me to be part of your life, you have to make a decision.
