The need to fight.
The need to go after her.
They’re all competing for attention inside me, searching for dominance. I whip and punch the tree trunk viciously. Repeatedly. For fifteen seconds I unleash blows without thought.
Left hook.
Right hook.
Left hook.
Right hook.
What have I done?
???
30.
Bellamy
“Bellamy! Bellamy, wait!”
I don’t stop. In fact, I increase my pace as I try to distance myself from Rhys. I’m walking as quickly as I can without looking like I’m physically running away.
I don’t want him to think I’m running away.
I’m angry, not hurt.
I have to save face. I'm not going to let him make me look like a fool.
I got played by a guy, who could have seen it coming?
Literally everyone. They warned you and you didn’t listen, you idiot.
I furiously wipe the tears off my face as they come out.
They’re tears of anger. Because his tone was frankly unacceptable. Not tears of hurt because he just took a power saw to my heart.
Nope.
They’re righteous tears, not naive ones.
Who am I kidding, I think Rhys can hear the sound of my heart bleeding from where he is.
I hear a car pull up right behind me.
“Bellamy, stop. Where are you going? Were you really hoping to outrun a car at that speed?”
“What do you want, Rhys? I’m tired.” I say, continuing to walk as the car coasts slowly alongside me.
“Look at me, please.”
I do. Phoenix is sitting next to him, driving the car. He gives me a chin tip when my eyes meet his.
Why couldn’t I like either one of them? They're just as good looking as Rogue, although no one has enigmatic eyes like his. Or such beautiful eyelashes and cheekbones.