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“You feel so good, Principessa, just as I always imagined you would. I want to shift us,” I couldn’t answer; he just led me where he wanted me to go. He was so quick in his movement, and now I was straddling his hips with Bourne still buried deep inside me. “You look amazing and so very beautiful. Keep your eyes on me as I take us both over the edge.”
“I’m so close,” I panted.
“I know you are. I am, too.”
He held my hands as he moved my body up and down on top of him. We moved in the perfect rhythm. How was this even possible? Bourne Atwater was every living fantasy come true, and now I no longer have to dream about him because he’s right here with me, loving me and promising me a happy future.
“Come for me, Principessa; come all over me as I come inside you,” he instructed, and then I did more than once. I never felt more alive than here at this moment with Bourne. Finally, I couldn’t hold my position any longer and collapsed on top of him with his arms wrapping around my back.
“I love you,” he whispered into the crook of my neck. “Look at me; I need to see you,” I raised my head slowly, and then he smiled devilishly like the wolf he is. I wouldn’t want him any other way.
“I love you, Bourne, so much. I know this is probably not the right time to ask,” I hesitated momentarily, and then he let me off the hook.
“It hasn’t stopped you before, Principessa, so please ask me anything,” he sighed happily.
“Am I yours? Because I don’t think I could ever return to who I was before you. You’ve changed my entire life in one heartbeat and given me one I never believed I would ever have. So, I hope you truly meant it when you said you loved me because I know I love you with all my heartbeats, and I can never go back to the person I was before finding you again.”
“Principessa, look at me because I need you to see me as the man who loves you and has loved you from our beginning. I know it’s not conventional, and the outside world is ugly, and they judge with preconceived notions about what’s right and wrong, and that’s for everyday common couples. No, we are not in that column; we wrote one just for us. I am a man who never is questioned, but I love it when you do it. I wait with excitement for what you will say next. You have so many facets to your personality, and I love all of them. Before you, I worked too much and never shared my life with anyone. I might as well have been a monk, but I think the dry spell is over, don’t you think?”
“I think you might be right, and when can we do it again?”
“I love how your mind thinks, baby, but give me a few minutes to recover, and just let me look at you. You are so beautiful and all mine. How do you feel? Was the pain too much?”
“It was painful but not too much; you were perfect.”
“You are the perfect one. My beautiful Sabina.” He held my face and kissed me gently, but I pulled away, afraid to say what was on my mind. He was already so aware of reading my body and sensing the slightest shift of emotions that it became increasingly difficult to hide anything from him.
“Ask me,” he encouraged.
“What about my family? How am I going to explain to Lucas how we came to be? He’s never going to understand, and the minute he has me within reach, he will try to take me from you.I know he loves me and tried his best, but he was never what I truly needed him to be. My mother warned me before she died that he would always choose the business and the mafia life. However, her only wish was for me to be as far away from it as possible. I was almost there, Bourne, and all my hopes and dreams blew up in smoke the minute he revealed himself to me at my graduation.”
Again, I felt the wetness coat my skin, but he let my tears fall and remained silent until I said everything I was feeling. “I run because I refuse to be trapped by his and my father’s choices. I hide because, for years, I repressed my mother’s violent ending to her life. After all, I was traumatized and so afraid. Yet, I felt something for you when I was too young to understand what it was, and now here we are. You went from being my captor to my savior and my future. So, knowing all that, do you still want me?”
God! I hated how I sounded, weak like my father always accused me of being, but I had to know. I wanted to believe him, so Bourne, please don’t break my heart. I silently prayed.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
Bourne
“I’m right where I want to be, Principessa, and I will always tell you the truth. You have my word that I will never hurt you, at least not on purpose. I may be older, which constitutes the more experienced one, but that’s not true. I have never let anyone in this stubborn and closed-off heart of mine until you. None of this makes sense, and I love it because I'm not in perfect order for the first time in my life, and it feels great. I want you with me and will do anything to keep you. If loving and keeping you means I have to go up against your brother and his organization, then bring it because he will have one hell of a fight on his hands.”
“You really mean that, don’t you?”
“Sabina, I have no reason to restrain my feelings regarding you. Haven’t I made that clear to you? So how can you still be doubting me?”
“It’s not doubt; it’s fear. As long as I remain with you, I pose a danger to you. Lucas will come for me; when he does, he won’t stop until he destroys you. I love you too much for that ever to happen. I can’t have any more blood on my hands. I won’t do it, Bourne; I’d rather run and hide under a rock before I allow you to be hurt.”
She moved away and out of my arms before I could pull her back to me. She walked into the bathroom and closed the door behind her. I fell back onto the pillow and pulled at my hair in frustration. “Fuck! That could’ve gone better, don’t you think?” I shoved the sheet away and gently walked over to the bathroom, knocking on the door. When she didn’t answer me, I knocked again, and if she didn’t come out in the next five seconds, I would go in.
“You don’t have to break down your door; it’s open,” she said, and then all the tension I felt a minute ago was gone and replaced with calm, the calm she always puts there for me. I walked in and found her sitting in the tub, filled with bubbles all around her. “I needed a minute, and if you stay with me, you need to realize I do this a lot. Hearing you say you love me meant more than you’ll ever know, but then you scared me because I knew it wasn’t bullshit. This is my life, and violence will always surround it, and I don’t want that with you; I want the opposite. I want peace.”
“May I join you?” she silently gave me her answer, and she shifted forward, and I climbed in behind her. My legs crossed over hers, and she leaned back into my chest, and I kissed the top of her head. “I can give you peace, Principessa, and much more, but blood may have to be spilled to do that.” She shuddered against me, and I held her tighter. She was going nowhere, I would be her protector from now on, and no one would ever hurt her again. “I will do my best to prevent that, butbefore I can promise anything else, I must speak to Lucas. Are you okay with me getting in contact with him?”
“You’re asking me? What if I say no?” she asked as she turned around in my arms to face me.
“Yes, I’m asking you because I want to know how you feel about it, but unfortunately, I cannot accept ‘no’ as your answer. Sabina, there is unfinished business between our two families. Your father must be stopped. I will do everything possible until I do that. Second, Marco failed at trying to assassinate you, and my sister and others died because of him. Third, Laurentina, your beautiful mother, the light in your eyes, murdered right before you. Lastly, my father killed himself over losing Marielle because he couldn’t live with the grief.”
“Don’t you understand? Buckets of blood have already been spilled, and in the wake of the carnage he created, something beautiful came from it.”
