Page 30 of His to Ruin

She’s right. I can’t ask it of her if I’m not willing to give it myself.

“He didn’t treat me very well. Just before I found out we were moving I found him in bed with someone else. My best friend actually. Or at least I thought she was,” I confess.

“Oh, shit Jordin. I didn’t know. I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have pushed you into telling me that if you weren’t ready to say anything.”

“No, it’s ok. I’ve never told anyone that. To be honest it’s nice to be able to confide in someone.”

“So…what happened?” She asks wearily.

“I knew something happened between them before I came into the picture, but both assured me it was a onetime hook up and nothing more. I should have known they were both lying. I think she wanted more after they hooked up, but he tossed her ass aside like all the rest before her. Until I came along. I guess when he took an interest in me, she figured it was the only way she could stay close to him.” I pause letting out a sad and pathetic laugh. “She pretended to like me to get closer to him.”

“I don’t understand what goes through a person’s mind to make them so hateful like that though. It’s as if they get some kind of sick pleasure out of it all. The guilt alone would eat me alive.” Lexy states.

“Not Sarah. The one thing Sarah could never do was say sorry or show any remorse. She never took responsibility for her actions.” I say downcast.

“She sounds like a bit of a narcissist.”

“Oh, she was. Unfortunately, I didn’t realise it until it was too late.”

Frowning she slowly asks, “What happened then?”

“You ever get that feeling deep down in the pit of your stomach, you know, that instinct that says somethings not right or seems too good to be true?”

“Sometimes,” she shrugs.

“I had that feeling. But I didn’t listen. God, I feel so stupid now looking back. I should have seen the signs.”

“You can’t blame yourself for how others behave. That’s not on you. None of this is.”

“I know. But it was all there right in front of me the whole time. They must have been laughing behind my back for months. A red flag was waving right in my face, and I ignored it. I didn’t realise what was happening until I was in too deep. I fell for his charms and let him convince me to sleep with him. I honestly thought he liked me you know. After that night something changed. He changed.”

Reaching over she gives my hand a gentle squeeze allowing me to finish.

“Overnight he went from sweet and caring to cold and possessive. I couldn’t even go anywhere without asking him first. I had to look a certain way and wasn’t allowed to speak to anyone outside his circle of friends,” I say dejected. “He was so controlling but I naïvely thought that this was maybe how relationships are supposed to be. He acted different around other girls like I wasn’t even there. They’d be hanging all over him, and he would lap up all the attention like he was the king of the fucking world. When I told him I didn’t like it he would just laugh in my face calling me a jealous cow. The only person I could talk to about it was Sarah but she made it all seem like it was my fault. She twisted everything to make me be out to be a whining clingy bitch. That someone like me should shut up and be grateful to have a jock boyfriend as hot as him. Those were her exact words.”

“That bitch,” Lexy declares angrily.

Yep, that bitch is right.

“I hope to hell I never meet her!” she adds, “That’s so messed up.”

“Like I had an idea he was cheating on me with other girls but never in a million years did I think she would have been one of them. I let her convince me that I was being paranoid until one night I wasn’t and found her blowing him at a party.”

“Jordin that’s awful. And yes I know it takes two to tango but she was supposed to be your friend., Lexy shouts aggravated.

“If I’m honest Lex I was glad it happened the way it did. I finally got the courage up to tell him it was over, but that’s when it got bad.”

“How do you mean? Please tell me he didn’t physically hurt you Jordin?” She asks sympathetically.

I try to bite back the tears but it’s too late as one rolls down my cheek.

I sniffle then quickly swat it away with the heel of my hand.

“Babe, you can tell me. It works both ways remember. Anything you say stays between us I promise,” she says reassuringly.

“I haven’t told anyone this, but he lost his temper sometimes.”

She listens intently as I take in a deep breath. My hands begin to shake as I remember the events of that night.

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