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My lecturers keep hammering on about end of term exams. I can’t find it in me to care.

21st Nov 2:48 a.m.

I wish I could sleep. Wish I could pull myself together.

I’m so pathetic.

But I miss you. So much it hurts.

2:10 p.m.

It’s been a week since you left.

Are you okay?

Please talk to me, Seb. Even if it’s just to tell me that.

22nd Nov 11:30 a.m.

Ferry and Leo have worried about me. They think I’m texting you too much. That I need to stop or I’ll never get over you.

They’re wrong though.

Doesn’t matter if I’m texting you or not. I’ll never get over you.

Yes that’s probably dramatic, but I know I’m right. Just like I know I’m right about you.

You’re it for me.

God, I hate feeling like this. Like some ridiculous, pathetic teenage girl who needs to move on.

I can’t do that though. Letting you go is too final.

I’m going to try and stop texting you as much. I need to try for Leo and Ferry’s sakes.

But it doesn’t mean I’m not thinking of you, Seb.

Because I am.

All the time.

23rd Nov 1:00 p.m.

I have my end of term exams in a week.

Every time I open my textbook to study, I remember our talk. The one where I told you what I wanted in my future.

Do you remember that?

I lied, Sebastian. Well, it wasn’t a lie…just an omission.

The thing I really see in my future is you.

I don’t care about the rest of it. All of it is negotiable.

The only thing that isn’t is that I want you to be part of it.

24th Nov 11:57 p.m.

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