“Look think it over, I’ll be downstairs finishing up… if you decide, come let me know.” He looks at me and nods his head. Walking past him I start back down the stairs to the basement but stop before I reach the door. “Cooper.” He turns around, looking at me again. “If you fuck me over, I won’t even think twice. This time, I won’t fucking aim for the shoulder.” His eyes widen again before I move down the stairs.
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SADIE
Ro walks back into the room, and I shake my head. “What?” He asks me.
“Did you go scare him?” Rabbi is tied in the middle of the room.
“No.”
“Sure.” I say in response to the shitty smirk on his face.
“Sadie, I don’t need to purposefully try to scare people, they’re typically already afraid of me.”
“You’re not that scary.”
“Oh really?” His eyebrow raises before he’s stepping into me.
“Yup, you think you’re scarier than what you really are.” I watch the evil grin spread across his mouth. “What?”
“You just wait. I’ll show you fucking scary.” He continues to close the distance, but I refuse to start backtracking. That is until his body starts forcing me backwards. He pins me against the wall, his hands coming up on either side of my head, bracing himself against the wall as he leans even further into me.
“I’m waiting.” I whisper to him this time, just to mess with him. His eyebrows raise, an act that tells me when he’s finding humor in what is happening, even though he shouldn’t.
“I don’t think you’re ready for that, Nightmare.”
“You have no idea…”Because I think I’ve been ready for this my entire life.
He’s leaning closer into me, his face coming to meet mine as we hear movement from the opposite side of the room. “We’ll continue this later.” He tells me before kissing me quickly on the forehead and righting himself.
I watch as he walks over to Rabbi, whose kutte is lying on the ground at his feet. His arms are both bound by chains suspended from the ceiling and his head hangs as he spits on the ground in front of him. I’m sure his head is pounding from the blow he took that knocked him out.
“You’re fucking dead.” He grits out.
“We all die sometime.” He lifts his head up to look at him. “Just some of us aren’t afraid to die.” I’m not even sure why that statement turns me on.
“They’re going to torture you until you beg them to kill you.”
“Jokes on them. No one can torture me more than my life already has.” Rabbi looks up at him this time and it’s almost comical how the fear is lining his eyes. He attempts to hide it, but does a terrible job at doing so. “You take my shit that I brought to your fucking club and claim it as yours. This still belongs to me.” He snaps in his face.
“No, you forget Ro, once you join nothing is yours it’s all the clubs.”Even the women.I remember J saying around me when I was in the clubhouse as I hazy memory starts to unfold in my head. I don’t think I blocked it, but it just stayed underneath the drug fueled haze.
“Yeah, I remember what you said. Not that we actually ever followed that bullshit.” Ro snaps at him.
“How do you feel knowing that the whole LA charter fucked your girl?” The full memory comes to, and I realize how I know him, I feel the bile rising up in my throat. I knew that there were a lot of men I had fucked. Hazy memories, but I didn’t realize that there were some I had no recollection of. “Why do you think J kept her around so much? I advised him to. Tight little thing. I mean she was because now, now she’s been used up.” A sneer in his eyes as I cut my eyes, looking at him as he speaks about me like I’m not even in the room. He’s trying to bait Ro, I’m just not sure why.
“I should have known it was you. That it was all your fucking doing.” Ro snaps out and I stop, looking at both of them.
“Oh, it was my idea to drug her first. Get her carefree enough to not fucking care, but it was J’s idea to keep feeding them to her for 3 days. Get her strung out on them and then let her go home. He did it intentionally so she would end up back at the house. He said he wouldn’t let her leave then.”
Ro shakes his head as his face falls. “And if I had any of doubt to kill you, that just solidified it.” He seethes through his teeth.
“Kill me, Ro, doesn’t change the fact that I had her before any of you fucking did.” The hazy memory of him on top of me filters through my head.
Ro looks past him at me, and I shrug my shoulders. “I recognize him, but I don’t know if the memory I’m seeing is real or playing off of what it is he’s saying.” I just shrug again. Rabbi laughs I guess realizing for the first time that I was even in the room. Ro looks at him again. “I think at the least he watched.” I nearly whisper back across the room to him. In my mind I can see him sitting on the opposite side of the room as J was on top of me. He slowly strokes himself as he watches. The image makes me cringe and I can’t stop myself as I double over and get ill in the corner. I wish that I could go back and change the decision to go to the clubhouse that night. I didn’t know walking in that night that my life would be forever changed and the things that I actually cherished would be taken from me.
Fuck him.
