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“Bitch I don’t want to die! I still gotta go beat this niggas ass for throwing my PH balance off. Can’t even score me a baller cause a bitch pussy is itching from this damn yeast infection!” Tears rolled down my face as the shooting kept going. I didn’t know if I wanted to laugh or be disgusted at what the women outside of my bathroom stall was discussing. Why weren’t they trying to drop down and protect themselves? They really stood around talking like every thing was okay.

“You sure its yeast and not nothing else?” Another woman asked. “ Cause when you used my bathroom before we came and I went in after you, it smelled a lil fishy.” I heard the other woman smack her lips hard.

“Bitch its either yeast or Bv, either way it goes, I’m whooping chris ass whenever he comes from playing family with his funky pussy wife.” After five minutes of hearing guns go off the restroom door hit the wall and I jumped hard.

“Y’all bitches get the fuck out.” Alarmed at the sound of Jarei’s voice. I tried to think hard on why the hell he was even here and if he had something to do with all the gun shots that I just heard. I was praying that he just happened to be in the club and saw me and wanted to protect me. Something inside of me told me that it wasn’t that and for that reason alone I stayed quiet on the floor watching the females run out leaving me and him alone in here. I wondered if I was breathing to hard but then he exposed the fact that he knew that I was in here.

“Praylah, get the fuck off the floor and lets go. Heaven is waiting in the car, you give me a hard time right now… and I will call my homies and have them shoot up your parent’s house next.” I tried to gather myself but couldn’t. I had to use the toilet to help me stand to my feet as I trembled with nothing but fear.

When we walked out the restroom the club was in a total uproar. The music had stopped and all I heard was people running and screaming. Jarei led me the opposite direction from the front exit through the back. We got outside and I saw his car and ran right towards it thinking about Heaven.

Jarei probably put on his charm and told my parents that he wanted to get her to spend time with her. When I reached his car, I relaxed a little seeing that she was sound asleep in her car seat. I had to think fast, I looked up and saw Jarei slapping hands and talking to at least six men that was all dressed in black.

The adrenaline of getting away from him kicked in. I needed to make sure my friends were okay and get far the hell away from his crazy ass. I locked eyes with Jarei and he nodded his head at me. I remembered what he said about my parents and the thought of running far away from him in this moment left me. I had to think smart, so I pulled my phone out of my pocket and tried to call Matthew.

He didn’t answer even when I called him back-to-back. Trying Era, she answered on the first ring sounding hysterical.

“Where are you?” I tried to make out her words since she was crying and asking someone else questions.

“In the back of the ambulance, Honor and Roberto was shot and its not looking good.” My grip on my phone loosened as Jarei walked fast my way. I panicked and started talking fast.

“Jarei is going to hold me and Heaven captive, Era. Please get Matthew to help me, I don’t know where he is-“ Jarei snatched the phone and threw it down hard on the ground. Hope left me and survival mode kicked all the way in as I willingly got into the front seat with pissed-soaked pants.

“Don’t make this hard Praylah. I started out talking nice as fuck to you when I probably should do you dirty and off yo ass.” He kept his focus on the road.

“So do it then nigga.” I looked over at him and this time he chuckled.

“See this is the Praylah I wanted for all of them years I spent dealing with your dark depressed ass. If you acted like this then I would have never did half the shit I did to yo stanky ass.”

“Well, it’s too late now. I’m such a dirty funky bitch right? Yet here you are still trying to control me and be my man. Please make the shit make sense.” I rolled my eyes.

“Nah, it ain’t never too late. If you want Heaven to see some healthy shit with us in Vegas, living and growing together then you better bring some of the old you back, minus the not taking baths and shit. Cause I’m in shape, I’m way faster and if I wasn’t driving this car, I’d knock you so hard you wouldn’t even have the strength to fight back. You know I get down nasty as fuck baby. Don’t fuck with me ma.” I didn’t have anything to say back to that because I knew this to be true.

Jarei hits hurt like hell and most of the time I duck and dodged them. On the days of me being depressed and feeling low and thinking nothing of myself, I stay still and take every painful blow that he dished out. The way I was feeling now, I didn’t care, and I meant what I had said. Even if it meant killing him to get me and Heaven’s freedom that’s just what I was gone do.

“I got the money and everything that I need now. Got us a nice house in Vegas, once I get the clearance that Debo is dead, I’m taking over Cali. That nigga gone be vulnerable. I hit him for a lot of bread tonight and took out his most trusted general of the slaughter gang niggas. Ol dike ass bitch thought I wasn’t gone hit her with some hot shit to make her realize that she a pussy and got a pussy.” He chuckled as he gleamed with glory and ignorance.

I prayed that Honor made it because if she didn’t, Ju’well would be devastated. I hated that all of this happened because of me. I didn’t have a phone or any protection, so I was really at his mercy.

“You gone learn how to smell good and be the perfect housewife. I’m a boss-ass nigga and will be treated like a fucking king. I’m going to make yo big ass work out and get fit because if you lose weight, you really gone look like a bad bitch. Watch a couple of YouTube tutorials like Nyla did to learn how to keep your makeup looking nice to cover up that hideous birthmark on your cheek. Play your fucking role and know that since I got money, I will fuck other bitches from time to time. I’m not letting you go so you might as well adapt and play the role you were given.” I shook my head and frowned up with disgust.

This man was really out of his mind and full of himself. Jarei was handsome, with smooth peanut butter skin, tall and skinny. His actions and personality made him super ugly. I tried to think positive thoughts like my therapist Ms. Scott had told me to do. I thought about how Matthew loved rubbing the side of my cheek where my birthmark was.

Matthew always told me how beautiful I was and he made sure to caress and rub all over my fluffy body. I wasn’t going to allow Jarei words to get to me. I would have a way out and that would be soon because I was going to make a way even if it was the last mission I had while living.

Chapter Twenty-Nine

DEBO

Debo

Chains, how the fuck can I get the fuck out of these chains. I sat in the middle of my father’s man cave and tried my hardest to break the chains that prevented me from hitting the fucking streets. After getting a visit from that nigga Inferno, I went on a killing spree killing everything moving in my line of vision.

If a nigga looked at me funny or even said some funny shit, I killed them. I wondered where the fuck that voice went that always seemed to have the fucking answers when some shit was going down.

“Ahhhhhhhh! LET ME THE FUCK OUT OF THIS SHIT!!!!” I yelled at the top of my lungs. I thought about Honor and couldn’t help but to scream again. I couldn’t really worry about Praylah because from what I was told she willingly left with that nigga Sosa. Nigga robbed a couple of my trap spots, taking bricks of cocaine and money. He stole enough to have him set for a couple of years. For life if he flipped the shit and did what was suppose to be done with the stolen drugs and money that he took.

If it wasn’t for Ream reaching out to my dad, I probably would’ve killed more men and added them to my body count like it was nothing. They wouldn’t even tell me what was Honors status. I didn’t want her to die because of that bitch ass nigga Sosa. I had a mind full of evil thoughts swarming in my head. I couldn’t calm these thoughts and I felt weak as fuck. Tears of anger started to fall down my face as I continued to try my hardest to break free. I cried hard in this dark ass room because I hated the thoughts that I couldn’t stop.