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I was supposed to start physical therapy, but Elias had offered me a job.Whether it was out of pity or not, I needed the money, so I’d show up and do whatever he needed me to do.If I was going to be any use to him, I needed to get some sleep.But as midnight passed, and one and then two a.m., I found myself just staring at the ceiling.
The entire time, all I could think about was Jack.What he might be doing—and with whom.If he was okay.
Groaning, I turned over and buried my face in the pillow.But too late, I realized it was Jack’s, not my own.His scent filled my nose, and I felt the tears well up all over again.
Sniffling, I rolled over, away from his pillow and side of the bed, calling myself a hundred kinds of fool for missing him—and worrying about him.
The faint sound of a clicking startled me, and I sat up just as the doorknob rattled.“Nishia,” Jack growled.“Let me in.”
My pounding heart eased a little, but I grabbed his pillow and clutched it to my chest, trying to protect myself from him.Trying to guard my heart.
Biting my sore lips together, I didn’t answer.Maybe if he thought I was asleep, he would give up and leave me alone.If I got out of bed, I wasn’t sure what I would do.But what I did know was that I wasn’t strong enough to send him away.I’d barely had the strength to lock the door in the first place.
His hand slapping against the door sounded like a thunderclap.“Nishia!”
Clutching the pillow to my chest, I leaned my head against the wall and closed my eyes.
Don’t give in.He already hurt your heart once.Don’t give him the chance to do it again.
“Nishia, baby, please.”
Tears rolled down my cheeks, my fingers biting into the pillow so hard they began to go numb.
Don’t give in.Stay strong.Don’t give him another chance.
“Little fairy.”His voice was lower, choked, desperate.“Please.”
I was at the door before I even realized I was moving, my hand hovering over the knob.Tears blurred my vision, and I had no idea how I’d gotten across the room so quickly, but his voice haunted me, echoing in my ears.
Please.
In all the time I’d known Jack, he’d only ever said that word to me.He wasn’t the kind of guy to beg for anything.Except, apparently, where I was concerned.
Inhaling, I didn’t flip the lock but pressed my forehead against the door.
“Nishia,” he groaned.“I know you’re there.I can fucking feel you.Just open the door for me.”
I could taste my tears on my lips, and I pressed them together, fighting with myself.
Don’t give in.
I love him so damn much.
He’s only going to hurt me again.
But did he really do anything to purposely hurt me?
He didn’t tell me about my mom.
He wanted to protect me.
That’s what they all say.It was for your own good.I want to protect you.I would never do anything to cause you pain.
But Jack wouldn’t!I know him.I love him.He…cares about me.
So did Mom, but that turned into a shitshow of epic proportions.She loved the drugs more than me.Jack might care, but there will always be something more important—more worthy of his time and affection.
I just want him.I want…something for myself.
