Page 38 of Destined for Him

But my guilt has.

“Hey.”

I almost spill my coffee when Shelby strolls in wearing my shirt from last night. She pours herself a coffee before joining me at the table silently.

“Hey,” I say quietly, wondering what the fuck we do now.

Her hair is tousled and sexy, her lips swollen from a night of kissing me. Her eyes dart around us, revealing her nervousness, but she says nothing.

Say something.

But I’m a jerk. I can’t.

She’s beautiful and young.

My dead wife’s voice echoes through my head, and I groan inwardly.

“So.”

I look up to see Shelby gazing at me; her head tilted to the side.

“You regret it, don’t you?”

Shame flames my cheeks.

How to explain that I’m disgusted with myself for giving in? Even though I’m twenty years her senior, I fucked her like she was mine.

She is mine.

I drag my hand through my hair with irritation and drain the rest of my coffee.

I can’t lie to her, but I don’t want to hurt her. Last night I told her we’d go at a snail’s pace and then proceeded to fuck her through the wall of my bedroom.

Well done, Kevin.

“It’s not that.”

Shelby tightens her grip on her mug and says nothing, but I see her eyes dim like there’s been a power cut.

My stomach drops.

“You regret it. It’s written all over your face.”

Shelby looks away, but not before I see her eyes shining.

“It’s not that I regret it,” I say gruffly. “It’s just…never gonna work.”

A harsh laugh leaves Shelby’s lips, and it’s like a knife in my stomach.

“Good enough to fuck, but that’s it, right?” Shelby blinks, and tears spill down her cheeks. “Even though last night you said we’d go slow and that you didn’t want us to be fuck buddies, you’re ending it.”

“That’s not what I said; you’re putting words in my mouth.”

“Okay, so whatareyou saying, Kevin?” Shelby stares at me, her arms crossed over her chest. She’s so beautiful, even when crying.

“I’m saying that it won’t work between us.”

I know I’m a prick, but there’s no other way to be.

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